Sigh. Program works, but performance sucks. Still buggy I suppose. Just did some last changes before ending the day, then continue tomorrow morning. Guess I'll try to get up at 6 or so. Family's in Malacca for church camp, so no ride, have to spend $$ on cab rides because I cannot be bothered with buses.
Tired. Was out all day. Feeling so grrr rawr just wanna smash my computer but it's freaking expensive so nahhh. I just wished time didn't pass by so quickly, especially while programming. Shopping today was great, but it doesn't fill up the void. I feel so unaccomplished, so useless. Why uh? Ooh the reason's pretty obvious, isn't it? There really isn't much reason for me to rejoice when it comes to work. I knew this was going to get depressing. I wonder why I took the plunge. And then now, I'm widely known as the girl who does not know what she's doing in graduate school, thank you very much. I admit now, okay? Happy? Why am I here? Because I wanted to be smart? Sheesh. No one can probably understand even if I articulated my reason in the most precise manner, so thanks people, for making me feel like I deserved to be here, really thanks, because without judgemental people I probably wouldn't be so spurred to prove them wrong, but then again that may just push me further than this six feet underground that I already am in. My brain is muddled up need to rest otherwise I'll start emo-ing again.
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Binged on those Japanese red bean and ocha ice cream sandwiches because stress makes me hungry. Doesn't help that connection is down in computing domain. How how? Bo pian. Eat lor. Then sleep. Feeling fat la, what's new? Plus I spent so much on cab fares today. :(
Met a fascinating taxi driver on my way back. So full of patriotism. I like. He said, "People ask me where I'm from, I say Singapore. They say, no you're black so where did you really come from, is it India? I got fed up because I am Singaporean!" :D
Tired now, shall sleep, wake up at 6 to see if connection works, then cab to school AGAIN. My browser is annoying me so I shall log off now. Toodles!