luvelle

A chat with a blast from the past just triggered it and I just keep thinking of all the injustice done to me (not just by him).

Don't blame us girls for getting angry. It's really much easier to be a jackass than to be a lying bitch. But yea I'm too nice because I forgive all the assholes that come in the form of my ex-boyfriends. See, I'm a good Christian. I love all my enemies. But hmmm actually I think it's not about loving/forgiving them. It's the indifference that makes me go, "Uh okay, one meal? Sure." But then at the back of my mind, I'd think, "Oooh the nerve! Still dare to ask me out!" But aiyah, why complain about a free meal? Teehee.

And then, it's so funny. It seems like all of them only regret it AFTER I leave them. What was it that you failed to see when you were with me? My sweet little kisses, my surprises, my gifts, my pretty face? What? And the next girl you find, you refuse to leave her just in case she turns out to be like me, and you're afraid that you'll regret it even though she's clearly not as ideal as I am, you don't want to hurt her 'cos you don't want to be alone but you miss me anyways, honestly I don't know who it is worse to be, her or me. But of course, knowing me, my feelings never linger for long because there's no feeling of regret to tie me down since I'm seldom the one to do the dumping and then there you are, looking so stupid because I don't really care anymore, and all you get is sarcasm from me.

Oooh in case you dense assholes have no idea, no those mean comments were not jokes or me being funny; yes, they're sarcasm because I find it so much funnier to see you respond to them. Some of them meant to make you fee bad, some just meant to tease. No harm intended, unlike the hurt you brought upon yourselves by taking for us granted (and admitting that). Oh boohoo I feel so sorry that you all are in sexless, uninteresting relatioships yikes but too bad I have no more lustful desires for any of you.

Still cannot figure out why we're so angry? Look at MY face. Look at yours. Puh-lease I wonder why we ever lowered our standards by THAT much. Wait till you get burned a million times, then you'll know how it feels letting a dickhead enter your life and giving him love and all you get in return are tears.

Now now, before someone starts commenting that I'm an angry person, or that my girl friends are such mean creatures, I'd like to clarify that, no we no longer have any lingering feelings for our blasts from the past, and yes we do get angry when we think about the past because of the scars etched into our poor intelligent minds. But you see, we get over it, just that the past haunts people sometimes, doesn't it? You're a moron if you tell me otherwise.

Yeay YOU are coming, so I'm up trying to finish the last bits of my report so that I can spend happy times with you! And then pack up my smelly room because gawd I live like a pig. :)

See you soon!