luvelle

Head hurts... From gawd knows what. Inactivity most probably. Or PMS. OMIGOSH cramps cramps cramps. :~(

Noon nap afer church service was awesome. Daddy preached today, about repentance. He's actually more reasonable than I used to think of him. :)

Now stuck in lab. Experiments still running. Freaking sucks. Scripting is tedious. Copy, paste, edit in Perl; after all, my scripts are similar. Seems like my program doesn't scale very well. ARGHS. Sheeesh. I am such a loser. Failure.

But of course, we cannot compare lives. After all, we're all humans. The grass always seems greener on the other side. I could've, would've, should've been brilliant, but I'm not. But perhaps I should be satisfied. No one can have everything; brains, beauty, love, happiness. Or is that still possible to attain? I've still got 20 years at best to prove that I can achieve all that (because 20 years later I might look like shit). Vanity kills the soul, but it's what attracts happiness. Truth be told, I'm loved because I don't look like shit in the first place.

My weight fluctuates a lot. One tip to losing weight: develop an anxiety disorder. I can see it going downhill from here on now. Not 'cos of anxiety, but I've been prescribed appetite suppressors by my doctor. Yesterday I was a size 0, today I feel like a size 00. The body's such a funny tool.

I crave for burgers. Damn PMS.