So unfair! Ming gets treated to a buffet lunch and I'm stuck here starving myself. :\ Nothing to eat around school really. I would've brought my lunch but I didn't think I'd be hungry today heh. Moreover the freshmen are having their matriculation week fun, so everywhere's crowded. Feel like sushi and Swensons. Thanks to Ming, he showed me the new Swensons menu, which is making me crave for food. Grr... Even the new salads seem tempting. I need food...

Thinking of getting a haircut. My curly ends are becoming straighter, so that leaves me with 2 options. Either chop off all the curly parts and don a short bob, or curl again. ORRR... Leave it longer and then chop off the curly ends. The third option isn't very helpful, 'cos I don't like my hair now. It's super long by the way. Short hair for me... Hmm I've always chickened out the last minute. It'll be nice for a change though. But I've had long hair for so damn long! Furthermore Ming prefers long hair, and I've forgotten how I look with short hair. Thought of getting Victoria Beckham's hairstyle, except not so short. Curling my hair will cost me lotsa $$$ again. Feeling cheapskate these days. Damn... Dilemma...

So much stuff to do. Really stressed up this week. Furthermore Ben's HYP student isn't responding to me, so I can't get his graphs. Now I'll have to do his part too. Yeah now I'm a rookie when it comes to PlanetLab, Perl scripts and gnuplot. Not perfected, but will get there soon enough at the rate things are going. Have to finish a paper review by this Friday, barely started. 24 freaking pages!

To Do List (by this Friday)
Paper Review
Experiments/Graphs

For today, I'll have to update the minutes of today's meeting. Need...Sleep...

Went out with Ming yesterday around 2.30pm. Met at City Hall, and we just ended up wandering around 'cos we didn't know what to do haha. Just walked and talked. Great exercise + great company. I feel like things are changing between us now, for the better. I am needing him more and loving him more again, if that sounds right enough.

Wanted to billiard, but no more 8' tables left, so we were bordering on going for KTV again. Lol... If only we had more money. Soon la... Then I can spoil you k? :P

Ended up sitting at Starbucks at Suntec, 'cos my feet were hurting from too much walking (repurcussions from the day before, with all that shopping). We talked, but we were both dozing off. Bleah. I really should sleep more. Had dinner, and took a cab back to my place. Home by 7pm. We both slept on my bed, woke up, and chatted about girls, and how they can be the most heartless creatures.

Anyway coming to that topic, Ming says that girls are the most heartless creatures when it comes to dumping a guy, 'cos the guy suddenly can switch from bf status to pest. I told him that the situation depends, but it is quite true. It's not that we are heartless, but it's because we don't want to dangle a carrot in front of our exs whom we don't love anymore and give them false hopes. I mean, if she keeps entertaining his calls and giving in to his requests to see her, he may still hang on to the hope that they may get back together, when it really is time to move on. I'm sure there are still girls around that don't know how to reject guys the proper way, and end up giving their pursuers/exs the wrong idea. Would you guys rather that happen? Isn't it better that she seems cruel to you, and after the wounds heal, you guys still can be friends? We girls are never intentionally cruel, unless you guys deserve it. But us seeming heartless when we break up with our guys, we do not mean to become like that. We just want a clean break so that everyone can move on with their lives and not waste time letting our guys go after something that will never ever happen again.

So Ming says he knows that when girls reject you or show no particular interest in you, it's highly possible that she will never ever be interested in you. Ok that's quite true. When she says she's not ready for a relationship, she will never ever be ready with you. That is a fact that most guys choose to reject. Of course, if you don't want to end up looking like a pest to her, the best thing to do is to back off and give her some space. At least then, a friendship can still work out at worst case. If you choose to think logically, you'll see that there is no such thing as being not ready for a relationship. If the chemistry is right, she would have taken a special interest in you and would have been willing to spend more time with you. She would still need to have her lunch/dinner/leisure time, wouldn't she?

I taught Ming a way to make an ex-gf actually care about her ex-bf, and reverse her indifference towards him. Sorry guys, cannot share here, 'cos most girls will kill me for saying it. Haha. And it has nothing to do with making yourselves look pitiful or such crap, 'cos why would we girls care if our ex-bfs are stupid enough to self-harm or let his emotions affect his life negatively?

Anyway, my body system finally crashed today. Sneezed like mad and felt super drowsy in church today. Slept from 12 plus to 7.30pm, and I'm still tired. Must meet Ben tomorrow noon. So this means back to work. Will be busy from next week onwards. My experiments still suck like hell but I think the problem might be with the PlanetLab nodes and not my code. Grrr... I hate experiments.

Today was so tiring. Fatigue or whatever. Didn't even workout yesterday and today! Arghh freaking out! So damn fat... Can feel my muscles disintegrating and fats growing. But anyway, met up with my loverboy at Far East 'cos he wants to buy a PSP to play while journeying to work everyday. Don't know why he don't wanna buy the pink colour one. :(

We then went for dinner. Sigh everytime meet him can only spend a few hours with him. Sucks to have no money and no time.

I'm trying to be funny. I've got one of him trying to be funny too, but don't know if he'll like it if I put it up haha. =P


Finally!


I seldom tie my hair like this. Ming says it's nice haha. Aww...

I still feel a little blue though. Probably need more sleep or a liposuction or something. Ming has gone to bed. I'm probably going to do a little work then sleep.

Ben wants me to take over the other 2 experiments on PlanetLab. Boo! More work for me! I'm quite sick and tired really. Wish I got a car though. Or at least more cash so that I can cab around. Bleah... Then I wouldn't always make excuses not to go back to school.